Go-Kart

Wow, today was superbly fun XD
Went go-kart for the first time ever in Extreme Park today =)
That was totally unexpected cause we were suppose to go back college and study after getting Father's Day gifts at JJ with Kaho, Talvin, & Satvin.
Somehow, we drifted off course and went go kart-ed instead LOL

First time ever, I wore a helmet today =.= felt weird, haha lame - I know.
First time ever went go-kart
First time speeding uncontrollably...in the end, can't control, and I went spinning and then went off track to the dirt =.=
Haha, many first times today XD
It was super hard to control the steering wheel and the whole kart was vibrating non stop @_@
My helmet was also kinda loose, and my legs were shaking even after I got off.
LOL

Mali kita go kart lagi lepas exam lol.
P/s. I suck at drifting =.=

People

There are many types of guys in this world...and these few types have taken the spotlight lately. XD

One of them is my one of my best best friend, whom I know can always be relied on from the first day I got to know him. We share a lot of things and I can be really frank with him without being afraid of offending him. Whenever I need someone to advise me on certain matters, he won't hesitate to offer his solutions and opinions. I know he'll always be there to support me. Need any help, give him a call and he'll be there. I really appreciate all of it. Although sometimes, his way of speech may not sound so polite to some and he's got a few bad habits which he he should try to control, but deep down, I know he's a good guy at heart. Haha, conclusion, he's one of the good fellas I know and I hope he'll stay this way.

There are also people who either directly or indirectly play with other's feelings. This is something really really not right. I personally wouldn't do something or show anything positive to someone whom I've no feeling towards cause I don't want to keep his hopes up. What more, trying to take opportunity of that and try to use this as a getaway to forget about the past. And could you imagine how will the other misunderstood party feel when you actually say 'No, its not you...it was her all along =.=' And that was also after the other party took the initiative to clarify things, not you. After all the things which seemed like it was her, but turns out it wasn't. It may be a relieve to the him, as things are finally cleared. But things are not going to just wash off from her brain in just one or two days time right? How does it feel like? Somehow there will be a bruise.

Then, there are also people who always like to be superior to others. Er, power crazy I would say -well, that's for extreme cases. But these people are constantly trying to grab the center position. They want to have a say in almost everything, even if its not their place to say so. Let's say your boss asks you do to him a personal favour. He'll be asking, 'Why he come look for you, not me?' 'Why he asked for your help, not mine? 'Boss should come find me mah'. As if everybody should go to him. He wants to know everything that's going on, even if it's not his business. Everything must go through his filter. Why bother so much? Just do your own thing and go along with the flow. I personally, seriously, dislike people like this.

Another type of people who are similar, are those who think that they are too smart or too good. Show offs. 'Of course lah! Its me wert...' =.=|| Please la... Wait till you meet your rival.

Some people appear to be very very nice, honest, gentlemen, trust-able, all-round good guy. But deep down, in the depths of their lubang hati, there appears to be a little (or bigger perhaps) pervert devil who pops up every once in a while. Touch here, touch there, see here, see there, peep here, peep there. They look ok, but on second thought, not so...

SO CONCLUSION, I'M NOT GONNA SIMPLY TRUST PEOPLE FROM NOW ON. No one is completely trustable except for myself and my family. I shall pry open my eyes big big so that I'm more careful in mixing with people from now on. True friends are hard to come by. So, appreciate them.

I'm not saying that I'm perfect and I do not have any bad attributes, but these are the few things that caught my attention and I would want to blog on this. I know its not right to kutuk, but I just want to! Haha~
BUT- people do change, and few years down the road, no one can really guarantee that they will still be themselves, and that includes me. =)

Turning point

Well, yesterday and today was really a big difference...
No doubt it hurts...
No doubt I feel sad to know the truth at the beginning...
but I guess half of my mind was sort of prepared for this all along.
Yes, I still think about it...haha what do you expect? It's only been less than 24hours since that most 'geng jeong' conversation took place /==
Haih...the timing of everything is so so so superbly wrong -.from the moment I knew you, up till now...but still, if it weren't for everything throughout these 2years, we wouldn't even have came to this level of friendship. Although things didn't really work out the way I thought I wanted to, but I am still very happy you said that I am your most closest friend and we are still able to share everything with each other in future -WITHOUT ANY BARRIERS LOL! We're on highway sexaay...XD
And I know there's no explanation to all this that is happening...its all timing and fate.
I guess this turned out to be kinda like a win-lose-win situation? o.O Haha...
I guess all I want is to really be real good friends with you, to be able to share everything and not hide anything. This is what true friendship is all about I guess. So, yeah..at the end of the day, I didn't think I'd regret doing it, cause come to think of it now, I actually prefer friendship than a relationship.

But still, you gotta take some of the blame...or most of it...=.=

CAUSE YOUR ACTIONS WERE SO FREAKING MISLEADING!!!!!!!!

There were so many occasions, whereby your actions would seriously make any other girl wonder.
So you can't blame me for taking it the wrong way.
You should have clarified it with me earlier....errghhh apa la lu...=.=
It's your fault...DEFINITELY.
Be thankful that I don't hate you after all this -for now...
Think of how you're gonna repay me for all of this.

/chew

Maybe I owe you something in my past life...so I'm repaying it back to you in this life =_=||
I hope there wouldn't be anymore misunderstandings in future, and we can truly be very close friends. Nobody can tell what's gonna happen in a week's time, or a year's time, or perhaps 8years down the road. No one knows.
Just be contented with what we have now.
So, yeah, exams are coming...let's just concentrate on our papers and gambateh!

Oh yes, consider all my previously misunderstood posts Null & Void. ~ lol

地久天長

 

浪滔滔 未淘盡我的腳步
雲卷卷 捲進風波永沒完
路彎彎 未來是哪一個夢
夜空空 怎可有空虛這樣濃

是否不甘心的奮鬥 總必有豐收
是否必要運氣 才可找到轉機
是否這一刻的最愛
將不再更改
幾多次努力過 才活出自我

霧飄飄 淚還是雨偷抹掉
愁點點 嘴已張開卻沒言

情癡癡 或全是我的幼稚

夢匆匆 一轉眼已阻隔萬重
啊.....


是否不甘心的奮鬥 總必有豐收
是否必要運氣 才可找到轉機
是否這一刻的最愛
將不再更改
幾多次努力過 才活出自我

霧飄飄 淚還是雨偷抹掉
愁點點 嘴已張開卻沒言
情癡癡 或全是我的幼稚
夢匆匆 一轉眼已阻隔萬重
夢匆匆 一轉眼已阻隔萬重

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The wave torrential has not washed my footsteps
The cloud volume volume will be involved in the disturbance forever not to have
Which dream the road curved future will be
How can the night empty have void such thick

Whether not the willingly struggle can always have the abundant harvest
Whether the essential luck only then could find the favorable turn
Whether this moment most does love
Will change no longer
Several cross diligently many times only then lives

The fog floating tear or the rain steal erase
Worried that the spot mouth has opened actually has not said
Infatuated crazy or is my weakness
The dream has been cut off in an instant in a hurry Wan Zhong

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The english one sounds a bit weird though /==

LOL

But very meaningful and superbly nice melody =)

Spontaneous2

It's been 2 years...2 long years indeed...
It seemed like it was just yesterday when you started saying hi to me in the library, and then the rest is history.
And in the blink of an eye, so many things happened throughout this period.
Ups.
Downs.
Humps and Bumps.
Twist and Turns.
LoL

The you who used to come chat with me everynight in Facebook and then go off to play Dota 2 years ago, and the you I've come to know now seems different. Well, I wouldn't use the word different though, erm, more like I've got a better in-depth perspective now.
The me 2 years ago would have easily misunderstood all your cleverly masked behaviour and words. But the me 2 years later realised that there was more to it than just the outer shell. All those things you show are merely a facade, so that others wouldn't see through the real you. You would rather suppress these inner feelings than show it out. You once said that you are only you when you're alone. What is, may not be it and what isn't, may be it.

Although sometimes, there were some misunderstandings, everything somehow managed to fall back to pieces in the end. I also do not deny that there were times where I felt like letting it go because I do not want to go on playing the guessing game. It's not easy to endure these feelings. However, despite my tries, I failed in my efforts to quit the game. I am an emotional person and its a fact.

我真的很高興，我們做了這麼遠。雖然它並不多，但我真的欣賞這種友誼，很高興我們已經是好朋友。 
謝謝你與我分享很多事情，無論是你的個人意見，對事情的看法，工作經驗，一般知識等.
謝謝你為我提供了無盡的笑聲與你的滑稽的笑話，故事，行為，和表達。 
感谢你的所有建议.
Thank you for your company at times of stress and also all the other times.
Thank you for making the effort to come by even when you're tired after a day's work.
謝謝你讓我明白很多事情在這 2年的时间. 
如果我沒有見過你,我想我永遠也不會知道.

R.H.W~

T__T

I was so so touched...

wished I could have read this earlier...

things might have been a little different I guess...

I actually had tears streaming down my eyes when I read that...

...

...

...there...

again...tears coming down...each time I read it.

Wow....that split second feeling was really undescribable..

Tell Me Goodbye~

 

Big Bang's new Japanese Single 

~ Tell Me Goodbye~

^_^

Am loving the piano parts in this song, especially the ending...XD

haha~and GD of course, lol.

I'll love anything as long as its BB =)

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Went out for lunch with Lulu, Mable and RARA (Sara XD) my long lost president from Form 4/5 lol.

It was suppose to be a 2hr lunch approx. plus minus the chit chat time, considering we haven't seen each other since er..2008? But...ended up going back coll at 5.30 =_=||| cause they decided to drag me to K-Box after lunch....waaarrgghhhh~~~~ 

>_<

There goes my noon...

well, at least I did a bit of F9 in the morning =)

I'm not usually a K-person..but well, for my RARA...why not? LoL.

SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY
nae-ga nae-ga meun-jeo
neh-gae neh-gae neh-gae bba-jeo
bba-jeo bba-jeo beo-ryeo baby
SHAWTY SHAWTY SHAWTY SHAWTY
noon-ee boo-shyeo boo-shyeo boo-shyeo
soom-ee mak-hyeo mak-hyeo mak-hyeo
nae-ga mi-chyeo mi-chyeo baby 

XD

~

Saturday, 15May2010

After listening to what is basically expected of us at work, well...I am beginning to have second thoughts about being too impatient to step into the working world >_< All this while, I was really looking forward to finish my ACCA and start working, and this is also partly due to the reason cause most of my friends will be finishing their papers soon and I kinda don't want to be the one who's still taking the final P papers in college.
If everything goes well...I should be able to start looking for jobs at this time next year...

Hm, today's conversations with my friends who are already working, made me realise a little more of what you have to be able to do, and what you must have, in order to keep your head above waters in your work place...
and I know I lack of a lot of all those lol.

You gotta have the thickest layer of skin -even thicker than a dinosaur's. Well, that was a little too exaggerating..but the fact is, my skin is very very thin only >.< I definitely am very very poor at handling criticism...Sometimes, even small ones get to me? And I'm sure as a new fry at work next time, I'm gonna get a lot more of those from my seniors and bosses. If I were to take every single thing they say seriously and take it to heart, then I can kiss the so called smooth-sailing-career goodbye, lol.
I can't afford to be like this anymore...gotta be more thick skinned! /okok ~learn how to handle criticism constructively...^.^

Secondly, you gotta have a flexible brain where you know when and how to react accordingly to the situation, spontaneously. My brain's not flexible...its like a flat piece of wood =_=|| In other words, you must know how to 'save yourself', ie 'zhup sang' in canto. LoL. Well, gotta work on that too...haiyyyy....
Cannot be so 'straight'...the blain must know how to pusing a bit, that's what my mom always tells me.

We'll be dealing with other people -different types of people whom you'll meet for the first time in your life, and they ain't like your own mom and dad at home. They will not hesitate to make you look bad or throw you in deep sh*t if its necessary for their benefit. They're not gonna look after your image as a professional accountant. You've made a mistake, and that's a fact. If you're not careful enough, you're gonna leave an opening for people to take advantage of you. Well, from a student's perspective, working is all about earning big bucks so you can raise a family, buy a house and a car, and pay taxes -which is true. But there's also more to it...lol

Well, another thing is I gotta be more responsible...Responsibility = Response+Ability? XD Haha~ don't think I'm all that responsible...I may be forgetful and irresponsible sometimes too. If not, sure kena from boss in future >.<

Anyway, so what if you passed all your papers fantastically, but you lack of all those things? No one is perfect and I am not too...so...the only thing I can do is to improve on all those...
I'm still very comfortable staying within my comfort zone now, and I've to get out of there, somehow, someday~

Anyway, the exams are coming nearer...and we shall focus on that first...whatever other than that shall be put aside first...=) We can't afford to mess this up.

KBS, you always say you haven't started studying, and you cannot remember your stuff...I know you're worried, and if I were to be in your shoes, I would have freaked out by now >.< Well, I'm not very good at giving good moral advise or support, but I believe you will definitely pull it through this time. Just don't give up, take every opportunity you have and make use of them. It's still not too late. Most importantly, just try your best and have no regrets later =)
YOU CAN DO IT!!!
GAMBATEH XD

梦

I always have dreams...

Perhaps you can say I have a creative mind to be able to dream of unexpected, bizzare and strangely out of this world dreams.

Or maybe I am just thinking too much during the day, so it carries over to my sub conscious mind.

[ In our dreams, we can go anywhere, we can be anybody, and we can do anything.  When we dream, we are like passengers on a moving train, unable to control our actions and choose surroundings. 

We let our mind take over.   

Sometimes, dreams can be understood in the the context of repressed thoughts. Dreaming serves as an outlet for those thoughts and impulses we repress during the day. When we go to sleep at night and slip into our dream state, we feel liberated and behave and act in a manner that we do not allow ourselves in our waking life.

Visions and ideas can come from your dreams.  

 Dreams can help us find solutions to our daily problems and see things from a different perspective. ]

It's also said that girls usually dream more often than guys do. Guys rarely have dreams...?

I think this is related to the fact that girls think and think and THINK ALL THE TIME, LOL, as in 24/7. 

We can't just sit down and let the brain go blank. Something's gotta be running in our minds. I don't know how guys can actually sit down for like 15mins and not think of a single thing. Not even a single something! I seriously don't know how come you guys have the ability to go blank just like that, lol. I want to be able to do that too, haha...

Hm, I've had loads of weird dreams lately... 

• My grandma..really kinda miss her >.< She said she would come over to my house for dinner on one of these days O.O I'll still dream of her from time to time...
• Jiyongie oppa going NS... XD
• Adam Lambert?!? =.=
• Going on a vacation in some foreign country...ancient stone-walled tunnels...nice scenery off a clift at the end of the tunnel...mermaids at the bottom @.@...and some of my college friends appearing and snapping pics lol.
• I've had lots of super weird dreams about my exams whenever exam period is around. I've failed miserably/ passed with super chiu kup mou dik high and unbelievable marks way above 100% /stolen exam papers just to change my answers/ missed my exam/ seeing all my form 5 classmates taking ACCA with me. T__T
• I've had weird dreams of parking lots before =.= Huge, spacious ones...and a lot of people there...
• Also had many dreams of celebrities. Those that I remember are the latest ones..lol including Big Bang-once, G-Dragon- er 2 or 3 times?, and Adam Lambert (wth? He's GAY!!! =_=) and one which I'll remember forever...Raymond Lam squatting down by a brigde, breaking a cigar into half, and start eating them @_@ 

There was once, I really had a very very nice dream, but I woke up half way...and at that time I was so determined to fall back to sleep so that I can carry on with the dream...XD and I think I managed to, haha~

Like I said, dreams are but one's unspoken thoughts...we couldn't really do it in reality, so we hope to be able to achieve it in our dreams. But it could also be something which we often think about during the day, so it got carried into our dream world. Haha~ like I said, girls think a lot.

Thanks =)

Haha...this felt weird for a split second...but I just felt like blogging about this...
I've been - [dc-ed again...for the xxth time =.=] -ok, where was I..

Oh, yes...it's the time to start revising and staying back late in the library again. Somehow I only started to realise that I feel really tired everyday when I come back from coll. I go at 9+ and come back at 6+. I wondered why I didn't feel this tiredness before, as much as I did now...
Now I know...perhaps cause I really enjoyed staying back in previous sems...
But this sem..it's totally different...No longer the cheery environment like it used to be. Its rather quiet now.
WHERE ARE ALL THE PEOPLE? ? ? ?
=.=

Now I've come to realise how it feels like to be working your brains the whole day...and come back feeling exhausted. Sometimes I don't even feel like onlining or reading the news...I just wanna come back, bathe, eat and sleep -and in between all of that, I can still do something which I enjoy and entertaining/leisure so that my brains can relax a little...something like a 2 in 1. This is only during the study break..but when I start to enter working life, this routine's going to be repeating itself for the next 30years?! O.O -and its gonna be worse than this. Unless I can actually retire early like Mr. David. LoL.

These few weeks back, I somehow know how tired it really must have been after a long day at work. So, yea~ I just wanna tell sexaay, thanks a lot for still coming around to chat with me every night. I really appreciate the company and am also glad to be able to share all your working & life experiences. Listening to some of the things going around at your work place has definitely helped prepare me for the working world and also the real world outside. So, yeah~ thanks a lot =)

 ^_^ 

Reminds me of my old pet rabbits.

Random Update

Yo Sexaay...dunno ur msn can go or not ...lol so I'm putting it in my blog.
Anyway, thanks for the solution last night ya...
really appreciate it =)

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Today was kinda productive...better than the last two days I guess...
Hm...enough for today...time to rest XD

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Hope to have the fun college atmosphere back though...cause it brings back lots of fun memories and keeps me motivated too..haha =D

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"Indeed we are given choices and it is really up to us to decide what is best. The answer lies in our hand. You become what you choose to be. No one can tell you otherwise, because you possess the determination to make it happen for yourself"
-Master of Zen-

加油 ler..

 Hm, exams are getting closer...
and I'm still not getting the momentum...
>_<
I get so tired easily...
not really productive still...
starting to get kinda sick of doing questions =.=
although I just barely started...
How lar ....
Must 加油...


***Yawns....***
eyes damn tired for some reason...
Nitez...zzzz

No. 6

Anyways, another post...to diary down things happening these few days... =)
Had EOM today...2 EOMs infact...3hours of F9 in the morning and 3hours of F7 in the afternoon...
It was seriously pure torture...
morning was ok, cause the brain's fresh...but after that...wow...@_@
Overwhelming...
and one thing - we're all not prepared; I'm not prepared...
who is?
So, yeah...its just EOM, so I'm not really concerned with the results, as long as I'm able to pass it, haha.
I'm just attending it so that I know where I stand at least.

And now I truly understand how it feels like to be working your brains from 9am till 5.30pm...
its just like working...
>_<
damn tiring...and exhaustive...
When you come back, you seriously don't feel like doing anything that requires your brain to think.
Haha, I'm about to start experiencing all this permanently in a year's time (hopefully)

By the way, we also went out lunch with Mr. David (gonna be lecturing me in another 2month's time lol) today and yesterday...
He wanted to treat us for lunch, but somehow we managed to stop him from doing so...haha not 'we' but rather 'they' XD
He's a fun guy and very friendly when you get to talk to him. I think I'm really gonna enjoy his classes next sem. =)

Btw, this is not self praise...but something Mr. David really said to me today...and I think its true also, cause the numbers said it earlier...and now, he commented the same thing...
He said that he can see me as a corporate person and that I am able to carry myself well.
LOL.
This is somewhat similar to the numbers...
and I'm not trying to boast...>_<


My character number is 6, and this is what it says :
"People with this number are smart investors ^^. They are tough survivors and are gifted with the ability to control wealth and attain prosperity.

They are noted for their natural elegance and well manners. They are fond of luxurious and fine things in life (so true HAHA, materialistic me XD). Undeniably, they have got style! LOL

Generally, this group of people will fare well in education, arts and religion. Their success will be propelled by their passion and enthusiasm in these areas. If they choose to, they will be able to convert what they are good at into commercial operations or develop them as their hobbies =)

They are likely to command respect from others wherever they go. Many people of this number shine as popular figures in society. They are compassionate and will not hesitate to support their subordinates who have shortcomings.

Their weakness are that they are proud and feel superior over the others >_<. For example, they will refuse to undertake any demeaning or low rank jobs, as they see them as undignified."

So, yeah basically that's what it says about people with number 6.
That bad thing in the last paragraph has got to go... >.<
But sometimes, when others have very high expectations on you, it tends to bring some pressure along the way too...haha...

Funny? Insulting?

This is a separate thing...nothing to do with the post before this...XD
Somebody from my class just posted something last week, which I think is an insult to that person, ie the subject matter of the post.

Sometimes I think when we become too silly with our friends, ie we always joke, talk rap *crap with them and there's hardly any moment we're being serious with them, and over a period of time, they tend to not take us seriously anymore. They tend to take us for granted.
Whatever we say, it becomes a joke or something to laugh about to them.
Whenever we're being serious, they will surely make a joke out of that.
And even if we keep quiet and do nothing, some stupid thing will definitely pop up.
Most of the time, its something funny to be laughed about.
But sometimes, that joke, which may sound funny to others, may not have the same effect on us. Rather, it tends to be pretty insulting sometimes.
Some may be able to shake it off and say 'They're just having fun...its their mouth, let them say what they want.'
Some may be forgiving enough to forget the matter and brush it off, since its their friends...

I'm not saying all sarcastic statements & jokes which were meant to kutuk (can't find the right english word) are bad, because we know that's the whole point...and they have no bad intention.
Erm, its ok if no one gets that, cause only I can und this. XD

Well, sometimes we may tend to have so much fun messing around that particular subject, but we often did not realise that it may hurt the other person. That funny thing, is no longer something to be laughed about anymore, but rather something hurtful.

So conclusion is, think before you joke or start making fun of anyone.
It may be funny to you, but not to him/her.

*btw, this is just a general opinion of mine...no particular purpose or intention =) and I think I should share this in my blog.

.....the more I look at it, the more geram I feel....ergh...

Salah Faham

Omg Omg Omg...I seriously didn't know that one single photo which was solely meant for laughter and humour had actually caused something unpleasant >_<
How would I know that a mere JPG file could have caused this much of misunderstanding @_@
For those who were part of the conversation, I'm sure we all knew the real situation but for some others who didn't really get the full picture of what's going on, then there's where the problem came in.
>_< If I knew, I wouldn't have posted that darn picture at all...
Aih...it was just meant for entertainment...
Why la all the s***i and all the racism issue came in...and added by one or 2 comments which were meant to be sarcastic?
=.=||
Ergh...guess I should delete the whole piece of crap...
One side's my friend, the other's my uncle @_@
What you want me to do?
Its suppose to be something to laugh about, to relieve stress...
to me, it was just for fun...an ordinary picture, nothing controversial...but somehow, ended up, it became something which is easily misunderstood LOL.
I don't usually post pics on FB, and once I do it, this happened =_=

Big Show

^_^ 

My first ever Big Bang original item XD

...can't wait for the GD concert album, lol.