Suckyness

My mind is kinda in a state of blurness...
too tired due to lots of studies going on...
too stressed up due to lots of thinking and the utilization of my brains...
too jammed up already...

My eyes are so tired...
so dry...
they felt like closing...
cause I wore contacts and spent the whole day in air-cond...

My mood is kinda sucky...
I think its the tiredness and stress...
It's definitely the exams...

and...

this thing...
yes...
this thing.

I don't really think about it when I'm studying,
That's cause my brain's occupied with audit & performance management.
But when I have spare capacity,
the mind wonders off into the distance and down into my deepest thoughts.
This is when I start to think and wonder why?

OK, after my exams, I'm gonna get it over and done with.
For now, I have to work hard and try my best!
ACCA HERE I COME! *runs back and studies more*
omgomgomg...I hate it when people are trying to help me but without realizing its scaring me.

*analyse...

WAHhhh~

I just wanna enjoy tonight and not think about anything other than ways to relax...but then, the line is super friggin slow......=_=||
No matter, here's a pic of my dear Jiyongie~
Have a nice day~

Emo-ing

I don't believe that people just write up emo posts without a reason. Even if you put a so called disclaimer saying that 'This doesn't not bring any significant meaning cause I just picked it up from a random website or I've just read it up somewhere and I find it meaningful, bla bla bla.'

LoL, even I do this sometimes. You can give all the reasons and disclaimers you want, but somehow, deep down, you sort of meant it, right? -I know I do. If it didn't bring any significance, you wouldn't even pay attention to that topic first of all am I right?

Ok, its random...XD
How do you define love?I think love is all about forgiving & accepting each other's weaknesses. Learn to forgive, even if you cannot forget. Despite the negative outweighing the positive sides, one does not desert the other.
To me, love is indescribable.
To me, there is no exact reason as to why you love that person.
If you love him/her, its because you love him/her, because of who he/she is and accepting their strength & weaknesses. It is not because he is so good looking, or she's so beautiful...things like that are merely there to blind your sight.

I believe you have to go pursue your own happiness, because it won't just land right on your doorstep. If you want it, go for it. If you think the other person will be happier off if you stayed away, then you are wrong my friend. If you think that your bad points will deter you from giving the best things to the other, you are also wrong. It doesn't matter like I've said, its all about accepting each other for who they are; not being afraid that you cannot afford to provide happiness. Being with you brings happiness itself.

Sometimes, it is very hard to understand the human behaviour. One does this thing and the next, it seems like none of this matters anymore. So if you've any unsolved issues or unsettled problems, please get them settled because sometimes, people just cannot let go until they've found the answer to it.
No vague answers please, make it crystal clear, lol.

DIsclaimer: This has no particular meaning or whatsoever...just things that came popping into my mind. XD

Sweet Dream

Morning, morning, morning people!!! I've just woke up like 20mins ago, and I can't wait to blog on this..!!! Guess what guess what???
I've actually had a dream about GDragon last night! YEahhhH Baby~~~~
It's the first time I had a proper dream of someone I like and its the LONGEST, COMPLETE DREAM (sort of haha)

Here it goes,
I was in college...(the beginning was in college!)
and then its in the morning...and I knew Big Bang was coming to college somehow...a whole lot of people went to see them (haha not unusual), except for a few others, like me. I didn't know why myself either...I guess I wasn't a fan of Big Bang then. So I was wondering in areas of the college's 1st floor where the art & design student usually go, although I naturally don't belong there. Strangely he appeared in my dream too, but was sitting in a dark room complaining about something. The room was dark cause the slide screen & projector was up, not that it was some kinda mysterious, scary room. Btw, the he wasn't GD.

Then, somehow it all shifted, or rather I walked to the front part of the building, where the ACCA students belong, and the girls toilet is no more the girls toilet! The structure & the cubicles were still the same, but its not a toilet anymore...its more like some sort of practice area and the cubicles look more like individual, mini practice rooms (private). So I peeped into the mini 'cubicles' which have turned into practice rooms, and I saw a person lying down in the first room, sort of in a sleeping position. I somehow knew it was G-Dragon. He was alone in there. I didn't want to wake up him up. Oh, in case you were wondering, the Big Bang appearance is over by now.

So, somehow, I knew it was GD and then I think an announcement was made through the speaker system (although there was originally none in my college, LOL), asking certain people to go the admin office. GD & I were one of those people.

AAaarrgghhHhhH~~~
I've forgotten certain tiny parts!!!
I can't write out the details!
Gawd!!!
I can't remember if we did have a proper conversation before that >_<
Anyhow, we both heared to the office and everyone around us were acting so normal, despite it was the GD, and yet remained cool about it. We started talking and strangely I spoke in Cantonese. He replied! -in Canto! I was like 'Omg you can speak Cantonese???' and he was like 'Yeah, I can.' WOW, isn't that cool? We can actually communicate with each other, and all along I thought he speaks Korean only. I was so glad.
So we went to the office to sign something and then we talked some more. I can tell he was pleased to meet me and enjoyed talking to me. And so, we talked and talked some more, until we got kinda close (arrghh I can't remember the details! *sobs*) and if I've not mistaken, he even gave me his, err iPod (not sure if its iPod or some other player) and asked me to help him re-shuffle the songs inside? LoL Oh yea, I also got to meet his em, manager I think, I'm not sure if he's the manager but he's close to GD and kinda takes care of certain stuff for him, sort of like the things a manager would do.

*skip, skip, skip* ~cause I can't remember clearly what happened.
Then he sms-ed me and asked me if I wanted to go eat frog porridge =.=|| Actually there was no frog porridge available anywhere near my college, but there was in my dream. I remember I hung out quite a lot with him before that and I really do like him, and I'm also kinda flattered that a huge celebrity like himself, would spend time with me. Anyway, I went to the place where there was such porridge and met his so called manager (forgotten his name). GD didn't come somehow, and I talked to the manager and I found out a few interesting things about him but I've forgotten all of them by now. All I know was that I found out from the manager, that GD has a very very very tight schedule ahead of him, and he isn't suppose to be spending so much time here, ie in my college. At that time, I was kinda feeling guilty because he had so many things to do and yet he is somehow staying back to spend time with me.

Then, the scene changed to evening, where I was walking on a field near my college (supposedly there was one in my dream!) and there were many other people around there doing recreational activities as well. I saw GD sitting down on one of those picnic tables, together with all the other 4 Big Bang members, Seung Ri, TOP, Dae Sung & Tae Yang. The manager I met earlier was there too. GD waved at me and I went over to say hi to all of them. They were all very friendly and invited me to hang out with them! I was really very happy =)
I'm close to GD, and now I'm hanging out with Big Bang!

Once again, I've forgotten the parts that happened in between. All I remembered was that throughout the whole time, GD and I were getting closer and closer. It even came to the point where I actually thought he likes me too! *blushes* I recalled both of us walking along the field and just hanging out...bonding and getting to know each other...

Then the scene changed to the shoplots near my house =.=
It was nearly sunset at that time. The whole place was empty and only GD & I were there. He started singing to a song and he was holding a mic! LoL the song he sang wasn't some sort of rap like he used to. It was more of a ballad. It was nice =) It was like he's singing it for me only. The both of us walked down the shoplots (wished it could be at a better location though) At first he was kinda holding my hands slightly by holding on to the tip of my index and middle fingers, sort of leading me along with him as we walked. He sang 2 songs I think and by the time he got to the 2nd song, he sort of entwined his fingers with mine...

Wow, at that point, I realised that we both had it. He likes me afterall and it was really super duper sweet of him to do that. Omg...!
And on top of it all, ITS G-DRAGON! Words could not describe how happy I felt at that point of time; GD & I are actually together, holding hands!!! It's just all too good to be true!

Then there were some other things going on after that, and the next thing I know, I was on an elephant trying to get to GD's place which was flooded with water! =_=|||

*****

Then, the dream ended and I woke up.
I've gotta say that was the most complete dream and one that made the most sense out of all the dreams of celebrities I had so far. The most absurd was Raymond Lam squatting down at a stone bridge, eating a cigar... =_=|| now you know what I mean. I mean, practically breaking the cigar into half and EATING it. LoL how absurd was that?!
I wished I'd gotten up earlier to blog about this so that I won't forget the details, but its too late and some of the parts have already faded away. *sobs*
But I'm still happy that it was all a happy ending ^^ though we didn't get to do anything more that that! Haha~

偏爱 2

Finally found 偏爱's piano version!!! ^^

Yay~~
Its super super nice~~~~
Thank you!
^^
Listen here.
I guarantee you'll get addicted to this song soon! Haha

偏愛

Does anybody know where I can get the piano version to this song???

偏爱, 张芸京

I've been searching high and low for this piece in piano =(
Nothing in You Tube.
And I can't read Mandarin T_T
Its one of the themes to Chinese Paladin 3;
Pian Ai (Biased Love) by Zhang Yun Jing.
I would very much appreciate it if anyone can help me find!
I really really really love this song *sparkly eyes*

English Translation of the Lyrics
Invalidate yesterday
Now that you are in front of me
I want to love
Please give me a chance

If I'm wrong, I'll take the responsibility too
Insisting you are the answer
I'm not afraid of being laughed at for being extreme

Believing in my instinct
Stubborn person doesn't complaint tireness
In love with you, I'll not retreat

I did say
I'm not dodging
I insist on doing this
I don't listen and insist on love
Try my best to love
To make you understand

There is no other road to take
You decide whether you want to be with me
I don't listen, insist on love
Following my feeling with love
Waiting for you to depend on me

Love you especially
Love
Pain is enjoyable too

MAMA Part3 (Videos)

MAMA Part2

Here comes Part2 of what I wanna blah out on last night's wonderful event in Korea ^^

The camera man sure loved GD, and kept on shooting him & 2PM who was sitting down the stage whole night.

I was also hoping for him to get the best male artist, but T_T sadly he did not. I was scanning through ALLKPOP.com from time to time in case they posted anything new- and they DID! I saw the whole bloody nominees' list & was kinda surprised that Big Bang was nominated for one category only which is best group. That explains why they did not show up and only GD did, together with 2NE1.

I watched until 10, until still not much of GD, just a whole bunch of girl groups winning awards.
I was like 'Where's my baby GD???' >.<
I didn't wanna wait whole night for nothing...
Then there was a commercial break and when they're back on air, the stage was filled with rows and rows of peoply in masks. WHITE MASKED PEOPLE~ and that's when I knew,
HEARTBREAKER'S COMING OUT!
G-Dragon was hanging in mid-air and slowly descended to the platform, and BAM! He started performing his FANTABULOUS HEARTBREAKER.
Well, I guess he did not really get the time to practice, cause it was live singing and there were times when he was kinda out of breath due to all the quick movements & dance steps. But anyway it was still a marvelous performance.
Then, TaeYang came out to perform Where U At & Wedding Dress (one of my favourites at the moment!) He did mostly the dancing part and hardly sang throughout Wedding Dress. Hmm...
And while TaeYang was performing, GD went in to change (into this white prince-like outfit!!!~ sooo hot!!!) and appeared again to perform Korean Dream. That was super spectacular!
As quoted by AllKPop.com: Big Bang's powerhouse duo and best friends for life, G-Dragon and Taeyang, took the stage at MAMA to show everyone in the audience exactly what it means to live the Korean Dream.
A perfect concoction of an ostentatious rapper, a silky smooth singer and dancer!

His hair was like....FUH!~ TOP of the WORLD~ GD is fashion, man~

~
And finally, after waiting whole night, the moment of truth has come.
I wasn't really paying attention to the TV cause I was refreshing the page for an updated list of award winners...
My fingers quickly ran the mouse scroller down the page...and then...I saw...
those words....

BEST ALBUM OF THE YEAR:
HEARTBREAKER, G-DRAGON

I was practically jumping and squealing inside out! I saw this like, 3 seconds before they announced it on TV. And when the presenter (whoever that was, haha, I was too happy to notice) said 'G-Dragon', I was like WAHHHH~~~~!
Then I was all too happy to think of anything...I quickly grabbed my phone to video his acceptance speech (so I could see it every night before I sleep =)
Oh my gawd...(He's so hawt)
This is what is stated in AllKPop.com :

G-Dragon won 'Album of the Year' with his 19+track Heartbreaker album, and stated: It is awkward that I am receiving this award alone, because I have always received it as a 5-member group. But I am very happy that I am receiving it with my YG family members, 2NE1. I think a lot of things happened in the music industry, for both me and others. I hope a lot of good things will happen next year."

As you can see, I do not understand the Korean language, so I had a hard time perceiving what they're saying. The only things I understood were when they counted '1,2,3' (learned that from Kang Hodong), 'namja' (means guy), and things like 'anhyeong', 'saranghaeyo', 'biyane', 'moruguessumnida', etc.

Anyway, no words can express how happy I was last night. ^^
I can't sleep, and I keep on thinking of GD. Gosh, I've never been so obsessed with someone this way before. Like I said, for the first time and out of all the celebrities I like before this, GD's the first person that I actually wish could be my boyfriend. Gosh!

MAMA Part1

Hey ya'll ^^

A very good morning to all & I'm back here to post on more of G-Dragon!
It's been drizzling non-stop since Friday night & the weather is perfect for sleeping beauties like me and you. But what did I do? I got up at 9.15am, thinking of whether to go college to revise or not.
=.=
Conclusion, I'm here lying here on my comfy bed, blogging! Haha~ and the weather is absolutely marvelous!
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Ok, drumroll~~~~~
*stops*
Presenting the MNet Asian Music Awards (MAMA) 21.Nov.09 (Saturday) brought to us live (delayed live, I think) by Channel [V] !!! Thank you so much for broadcasting this live!
I've only started going gaga over Big Bang (to be more precise, it was TOP first and then GD) since erm, the middle of October I guess. And this is my first time watching a Korean Music Award show and I have somebody to cheer for!!! ~and that person has actually gotten the BEST ALBUM OF THE YEAR!

They should've live telecasted the Red Carpet event too >.<
~
OK, like wtf..I've just written like a paragraph on GD & Gaho on the red carpet and its all GONE after I've decided to embed the video clip of them on the red carpet! Gahhh!!~
Anyway, what I said was, Gaho was surprisingly bigger (way bigger) than what I remembered. The last time I saw his actual size was on GDTV, that was when GD took Gaho for a walk on the day his Heartbreaker album was sent to his house. Now look at him! I was shocked to see him bringing Gaho to the red carpet. I love GD~ *faints*

GD's hair is back to black again =) Although I kinda gotted used to his white anime-like hair, lol. I thought he's go bald or something after all the bleaching & dying he did to his hair!
He dressed in a simple black suit and with a lovely corsage (although I'd love to know what flowers were those) and, and, and...oh I LOVE YOU GD!
GD's arrival time was 7:17PM KST, which was 6.17PM at Malaysia. What was I doing at that time? Haha~ I just finished bathing and was sitting down facing the balcony in my parent's room, staring right into space. I didn't know what to do, but to listen to this song 偏爱 and emo-ed for a while (at the same time hoping it wouldn't rain). I would be cursing my heart out if it did rain last night, and Astro would be unavailable T_T

GD Wins MAMA

OK, I'm gonna make this super super short (although I so really wanna give an elaborate blog post)

I have to go sleep soon and all I wanna say is:
I LOVE G-DRAGON!!!
CONGRATS GD@Jiyongie for winning Best Album of The Year in the MNet Asian Music Awards a few hours ago.
And the best part is, I watched it LIVE! LIVE!
ON CHANNEL [V] !

It's your first solo album, and YOU'VE WON THE BEST ALBUM with it!!!
I'm so proud of you JIYONGIE OPPA ^^
I LOVE YOU!

Ps. I'll give a full elaboration on this ASAP, first thing when I get my hands on this laptop tomorrow!

This post belongs to him

Here I am, back again to Dolce Vita!

It has been a while since I've posted something here in my blog.

Right now, we (all ACCA students worldwide) are in an exam frenzy mode.

Of course, I do my revision & study, but now is the time of the day for me to relax as I've covered what I'm suppose to for today.
-and since I'm here, what do I blog about?
Kwon Leadah of course!
These 2 are my favourite mini banners I've found in the BigBangVIP.net forum.
'Always a Hot Issue for the World' ~so true.
and
I like this : 'bangin' since 1988!' LOL

I don't know why I'm so particularly obsessed with GD since the past few weeks. I can't live through a day without going GD-photo-hunting and constantly loading new gifs & jpegs into my phone memory card! -and this obviously means changing my phone wallpaper and screensaver practically every 24hours.

This pic below is one of my recent findings and...haha it's super retard XD
TOP's the retard, lol and GD's like 'I dun wanna fren u >_<' Haha~~
This one below is from their recent commercial shoot, erm, some Hite Beer ad I think. It's suppose to be winter-themed, where they're all frozen up and GD's blonde hair definitely helped him pull off the icy look. Did I mention that he goes well in EVERYTHING he dons? He's like all super ice-man mode in striking blood-red suit saying 'Come on babeh~~~~'
How alluring....*devilish grin*
Can't wait to see the full advert!!!
Thank you AllKPop.com for keeping me updated on GD & Big Bang!
This is another random pic which I like to share here in my blog. I just like the colourful heartbreaker watermark. It's brilliant. ^^ Sadly I can't get this into my phone. I don't think its compatible. T_T
You're my heart~ heart~ heart~ hear~ heart~breaker~
This is GDragon's latest genie inspired Vogue photoshoot.
Is this chic, 21st century genie concept working?
When I first saw the pics I was like, O.O yup that's right...all wide eyed. This is fantabulously crazy. It's like fashion+evil genie-gone wild. Haha GD's such a fashion icon, and I think he totally deserves the title Fashion Genie. He is Fashion after all, LOL.
I'll be keeping an eye out for the Dec edition of Vogue magazine! Haha~By the way, did I mention to you that my dear dear Jiyongie is having his own solo concert on 5th & 6th December? ? ? !!! -and FYI, its in SEOUL =_=|||
GAHHHH~~~~ I WANNA GO~~~~!
(so badly....) *sobs...*

Ps. ACCA exams officially begin on Dec 7th =)

Wedding Dress

This is Tae Yang's new release, called Wedding Dress. I like this song a lot as well as the MV and for some reason I've decided to post it here.

You and he would argue
Then sometime tears would drip.
As you’re struggling, I felt the rays of hope
My heart s-s-shattered in the silence
And I would calm down as I look at your smile
I conceal and hide my feelings away from you
Because if you find out, we may be no longer together.
I hold my breath
And bite my lips
Then I hope that she’s by my side, not his.

Baby, please don’t hold his hands
Cuz you should be my lady
I’ve been waiting forever, so please look at me.

Once the music starts
You’ll take the eternal pledge with him
I prayed and hoped
that this day would never come

The wedding dress you’re wearing (dress)
(Girl) The wedding dress you’re wearing
(but I’m not the one who’s by your side)
(Wedding dress, dress )
The wedding dress you’re wearing, oh no

I hated you
for not understanding how I felt.
So at one point, I even wished for your misery.
But my tears were already d-d-dried up.
Every night I felt anxious
and now if I think about it, I might have already foreseen this event.
I close my eyes,
And dream an endless dream.
Then I hope that she’s by my side, not his.

Baby, please don’t hold his hands
Cuz you should be my lady

Once the music starts
You’ll take the eternal pledge with him
I prayed and hoped
that this day would never come

The wedding dress you’re wearing (dress)
(Girl) The wedding dress you’re wearing
(but I’m not the one who’s by your side)
(Wedding dress, dress )
The wedding dress you’re wearing, oh no

Be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase those pitiful memories of me
For a long time
It was hard on me, no oh
I spent too much time fantasizing
And had a lonely life like a fool
She’s still looks at me
and smiles brightly

The wedding dress you’re wearing (dress)
(Girl) The wedding dress you’re wearing
(but I’m not the one who’s by your side)
(Wedding dress, dress )
The wedding dress you’re wearing, oh no

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I'm really into Kpop now. ~_~

Ps. Another song that I find quite nice is Time To Love (TTL) by T-ara ft. Supernova. Damn 'cun' lol

Notes

These are the tiny notes I've been saving up in my phone from time to time:

• I love[d] you more than you think you know me.
• Even footsteps on the moon must be left behind one day when men finally learn to live on Mars.
• For a moment you're like the worm in my body and the next thing I know, you're like the stranger whom I thought I've never met before...
• I remember what you wore on our first date, you came into my life and I felt hey, you know this could be something...
• Sands of time changes the passage of the human mind as well.
• Nice to see, nice to touch. Once broken, consider yourself disposed off.
• The first cut is the deepest..what about the 2nd, 3rd, and the ones after that? I think in this world, only a fool will allow the 2nd and 3rd to happen..and only I will allow it to continue coming.
• Guess what? I'm super hurt..and I for one do not deserve such treatment.

[Why the F am I talking to you on MSN now???] Erghhhh....I regretted that action.
I haven't forgiven you...and I do not know the reasons behind your actions. Why are you only doing this to me? Me, Me and only Me?

Count Dracula vs, Timon?

Haha I know it's a little absurd to be posting everything there is about Big Bang here, especially on my Jiyongie dear and cool cool TOP ^0^

But I've gotta point this out...
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Does Jiyong (G-Dragon) really look like Timon (yes, Timon the meerkat from Timon & Pumba =_=||) and does TOP look like Count Dracula???
By the way, TOP's the guy on top, and Jiyong is the one below.
Well, my friend actually told me this, and I was like...waddaheck?!
TOP does look a bit scary, but Jiyong=Timon??? You've gotta be kidding me...he's just like the cutest thing on earth !!!

New Layout

Haha~ Officially updated my blog today!
I've changed the name to Dolce Vita ^_^
I've completely changed the layout/template and you can never guess how long I took to choose this, cause I've been to several sites and it was so difficult to choose a nice one!
However, all my old Blogger Tools like the chat box and music player are gone =( I need to find them and put it back here.
Anyway, this post marks the start of a brand new blog & the beginning of much more wonderful stories from me! ^_^

Update2

Right now, I don't really have any strength left to bother about you...
Even if I want to, I can't afford to.
Who are you to me right?
You're just my very very very normal friend; you should belong in the most basic category available.

Anyway, I'm literally drowning in the sea of G-Dragon >.<
YOU GO LEADER KWON!!!
I also just watched the Haru Haru MV. Well this is not the first time watching, but last time I didn't really pay attention to the MV cause I didn't know who was who back then! LoL But just now, I really like the MV a lot! GD's acting skills were pretty amazing. He's full of expression and life. He can be so serious, so sad, so angry and super happy.
OMFG, you should see him when he smiles sheepishly...he stole the crap outta my heart man~ I love his smiles...his grin...his laughter...especially the shy ones! Gawsh !!! haha~and
He's only 21! ~and I like guys with good leadership skills && heheh
Man, I seriously wish he's my boyfriend. But then again, I don't really know his real character and attitude in full. But then again...JIYONGIE~~~~ ^_^ I ROLF YUuuu~~~

Ok, right now I'm having my lunch at the same time blogging. I realised I haven't been posting a lot lately, due to the fact that exams are less then a month away! I wish I could have more time to blog on how I feel and express my views & opinions. Sometimes when I think of a random topic to write, I'll tend to forget about it if I don't blog on it soon. This is what you call forgetfulness. You know what, GD and I have a few similarities (back to the GD topic! ahaha). We're both very serious about our work and I tend to be a real perfectionist most of the time. I was a leader back in my high school days and I have very high expectations of my board. So I kinda understand Gd's feelings when it comes to leading the team. It's totally not easy, and most of the time its the human factor that's the main problem you've to deal with.

Anyway, I've to start studying soon >.< style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">Dolce Vita~
What do you think? It means 'sweet life' in Italian.
Its also tatooed on GD's arm. ^_^

Slowly but surely

Sometimes, you might be finding it hard to accept certain issues despite the fact that many people who are close to you have given tonnes of advice to you.
Yet, you still don't get it.
You find it is so hard to penetrate that thick, foggy and misty skull of yours.
It took you months and months and yet, no sign of improvement in the process of doing so.
~~~
Then one find day, one fella just came up to you and told you the same stuff you've been hearing from those close to you- and you seem to be able to accept it.
#_#
Isn't it strange? -that it takes an unrelated party who is totally unrelated to this issue to get this message through?
Sometimes, its like that...
So, I think I'm really in the process...
Let's hope this works.
Conclusion, a third party's view is always better cause when you step out from the situation and give it a good look, you'll realise that it's a lot easier to comprehend what's going on and in time to come, you'll learn to accept it...slowly, but surely =)

Let Me Hear Your Voice

Why don't both parties just talk and be frank to each other?
I sometimes feel that there's so much underlying details that we(or rather you) try to cover with pleasant smiles.
I don't know when are you speaking the truth and when are you putting on a show.
I used to think I know you, but lately I doubt that its true.
Sometimes I just wish we had that heart to heart talk and let out all our issues.
I wanna know why...
I've got so many questions starting with 'Why' left unanswered when you just walked away from countless situations.
You leave me hanging with a question mark.
Why?
Anyway, screw the emotional part.
All I want is a frank conversation with you and let's go over what's been bothering us, or rather me all this while. Maybe you're just too indifferent to even realise or bother there's an existing problem.
That's what I've been wondering all this while.
Maybe you didn't even realise there's been a problem at all!
All I want is to know what's going on in your brain and answer this question once and for ALL~!
I was told never to question the question mark, but now it seems that I cannot just leave it unanswered, considering my attitude for not willing to rest until I've got the answer.

Ok, why the heck am I even posting on this issue again. No point.
You're not worth it.
I've wasted enough time on you, shed unnecessary tears, killed millions of innocent nerve cells for stressing myself up because of you.
Yet you go on to disappoint me. Can't we just remain as friends happily? You have to go and make things so hard for me.
I told myself never to dwell on this issue anymore.
Just try to bury it and cover it up with whatever I can find.

To my dear bro, I just wanna let u know that if you feel like talking, your sis is always here for you.
Anyway, Happy Birthday in advance to you Bro! (5th November)
May you have the best year ahead and I hope our friendship lasts forever!

Ps. The title to this blog is from Big Bang's latest album! I wonder if they can speak fluent Japanese by now? GD & TOP <3>

1st Nov Post

Well, I haven't been posting anything here for quite some time and I think it's time to cook up something as a starting point for my November posts =)

I'm so into K-Pop right now that my everything is practically Korean-themed.
My phone's theme has gone from TOP to G-Dragon within a week =.=
My desktop wallpaper is G-Dragon aka Jiyongie darling *squeals!!!~*
My previous blog posts were on Big Bang~
I have more and more pictures of G-Dragon stored in my laptop~
I begin to photoshop on G-Dragon.
Even my blog banner is G-Dragon =_=||
*note how many times the name G-Dragon has appeared. LoL
I'm even listening to Big Bang's song as I'm typing this right now. It's called Forever With You, featuring Park Bom. I don't know why it's only GD and TOP throughout the MV. I don't seem to see the other Big Bang members! The song's not bad though.
Conclusion: I just love my Jiyongie now V(^_^)V
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OK enough of the fun stuff...time to blog on some more serious issues.
Firstly, exams are like a month away and we're seriously in 24/7 study mode, some even since last month itself.
I'm really really nervous....I have to study and study and STUDY.
It's like having to eat, sleep and shit with your past year papers =.=
Actually I'm supposed to be reading up on the last 2 questions on the Dec 2002 F8 paper, but I'm too tired (and lazy) to catch up on it now, although I'm really suppose to if I don't wanna fall behind schedule.
I see others study, I feel motivated to study as well. At least it will make me think 'Oh, they're studying, so I must at least do something equally as beneficial'
On the other hand, its kinda boring and tiring. Honestly who likes studying? =_=||
But anyway, that's why I've been staying in college the whole day instead of at home. At least I've got my friends as entertainment. They're the laughter providers at times of stress, and I'm glad to have them around.

Today haven't really been productive =(
I tried to study, but it's like taking so long to get absorbed into my brain, plus the distraction from too many 'movements' around me. =.=
aarrghhh~~!
Well, at least I know I'm not the only one like this and I can't expect everyday to be all smooth-sailing. There tend to be ups and downs; rainy days and bright weathered days~ you get what I mean. =)
Tomorrow, promise I'm gonna try my best! Also bear in mind to take care of my health >.<