26.Jan.2011

Whooish~ I haven't been blogging in an awfully long time and I think I its about time I do something here. 

Classes are going on now and I like the fact that its in the morning, from 10 till 1. Just nice. Not too early, and we end by lunch time. I have to stay in the library after lunch cause if I don't, I'll end up sleeping at home. So everyday, I go home at 5, just in time to get ready for my Ciel Phantomhive at 5.30 on channel 715! LOL! It's been a reeeeaaaallly long time since I actually followed an anime. I thought I grew out of this 일본인 stuff. I'm also trying to practice my Korean. Hm, yeah, still in the process of trying to be closer to GD!

Right now, P4 is just...challenging.

And P5 is...well I don't know, common sense? Haha I'm afraid I ain't got too much of it either. 

CNY's next week, and we'll be off for one week. I've to go back there again. This time I'll bring along my P4 and P5 stuff as well as my laptop. Hopefully I can take some time off to finish off my Evernight book which I've abandoned since college started a few weeks ago. 

Now, I'm about to shut the laptop off and go to sleep. Tomorrow's P4. In front of me, 백점만점 is on KBS. I love this show! Damn farney~~

I'm also learning to read Korean as a quicker speed already. I can read a few words at once (provided it stays there for more than 1-2 seconds) and if I'm lucky, I can read a short sentence on screen. I need to practice more! Arrgghh~~~ I also need to practice speaking. 

Well, this isn't the exact picture to depict why I like this anime so much, but its the best I can find. I just love the Victorian, old European style. The time when they have all the Lord, Viscount, etc~ I love victorian style, very classy and noble-ish.

Whooish~ anyway..yeah, I'm also back into Arthurian legends lately, cause Merlin's back on TV3! XD

I love Arthurian legends especially. Partly influenced by the fact that its from old England and its all magic, sorcery, kings, and Avalon, Excalibur~ hahaha and Arthur's damn good looking in the Merlin series! I somehow love things that originate from England. 

Anyway, I'm still as crazy for 권지용 as ever! I'll never stop~ I wonder why I'm like that. Well, I guess now's the time I can still take interest in things like this. While I still have the time and level of maturity to do so. LMAO. I wonder if it will ever outgrow me. One day, I might just find Big Bang and Kwon Ji Yong so lame and boring and I don't see what's the big deal about it anymore cause they're just ordinary people who gets extra attention from people that's all. 

Hahaha, what rubbish am I talking. 

I must be going soon anyway. 

Chiaoz~

안녕히 주무세요!

Another Crazy Post for GD

Waoooo~with a tremendous drop in the temperature from 28C to -10C in Korea, no wonder my Jiyongie's suffering from terrible terrible flu and super high fever. 

T___T

I feel so sorry for him...sigh~ 

That poor guy must've been working his ass off since their album release, or even long time before that perhaps. Even though he was super busy, he still took time off to go to the hospital to visit his old friend who's in a comma (Thanks to the friend's dad, who wrote a letter to GD on their official GD and TOP homepage) It's nice to know that GD still cares about those who were buddies with him long time ago. That was yesterday. And today, news said that GD couldn't perform with maknae on M! Countdown due to terrible flu and a very high fever. He was barred from performing. Eventhough he had high fever, he still went along to the studio to practice. Now I know, he already KO-ed yesterday when he visited his friend. But he looked kinda ok in the pictures. It didn't look that bad.

=_____=

GD, you're a SUPER WORKAHOLIC!!! BREATH!!!

He tells everyone else to be careful of the cold and not get sick, and then here he goes and gets a bad fever. He should take his own advice. Now at least he’s hospitalized and can’t work. LOL. 

Poor GD. 

Yesterday after reading that news, I felt so proud of him as a fan. 

Now, I feel sorry for him. Hope he gets well soon!

You know, GD can dress in the most simplest combination of outfit and still look dashing~

Black skinny pants/ jeans + some belt + plain black/white v-neck t-shirt.The v-neck kills me each time! Hahaha~ he's freaking sexy in it. LoL~

Get well soon GD! 화이팅! ♥

He/She/It?

 

@____@

After more than one year of liking this song...I just found out today...

That HE is a SHE!

Ok, I'm a banana...I don't think the name 張芸京 sounds like a girl. 

I definitely thought she was a guy. I couldn't even tell it through the voice. I thought it was a guy's!

Oh man~ it sort of ruined my feelings towards this beautiful song...

He (sorry)- She, definitely looks girlish but other than that, I thought that dude was a guy.

=____=

Oh man~ how can I not figure it out? 

Only after one year plus...LMAO!

Am I dumb or what? XD

Let Me Be The One

LOOK, I KNOW IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME YOU KNOW,
NOW, I GOTTA TELL YA SOMTHIN’ SO LOOK AT HERE

FIRST THING FIRST, 네게 하고싶은말. 어디서부터 시작해야할진 몰라도,
나름 고민했어 지금까지 아직 조금 쑥스럽지만… (OH LOVE)
좀 더 용기내볼게. 이런 낯 뜨거운말 못하는 날 알잖아
일생에 한번, 난 지금인것같아.
여기서 시작할께 BABY 들어줘
LET ME BE THE ONE

* LET ME BE THE ONE, 너만의 사람. 내가 되고싶다고 (LET ME BE THE ONE)
LET ME BE THE ONE, 난 하루종일, 너만 생각한다고 (OH LOVE)
LET ME BE THE ONE, 나 약속할게, 너를위해 산다고 (LET ME BE THE ONE)
LET ME BE THE ONE, 나 영원토록, 너만 사랑한다고 (OH LOVE) *

덧없는 생각은 바람이되고, 눈물은 넘쳐흘려 저 바다를 이루고
많 이 부족한 나 같은 남자도, 너를 만남으로 I FEEL SO SPECIAL
SO LOVE LOVE, LET ME LOVE YOU BABY.
AND GIVE LOVE, 기적같은걸. AND LET ME, 이맘을 받아줘
CUZ I WANNA BE WITH YOU GIRL

* REPEAT

날 빛나게하는건 세상에 단하나
YOU’RE THE ONE IN THE MILLION
세상의 많은별중 내가 숨쉴수있는곳
내 기쁨도, 슬픔도, 웃음도, 눈물도, 다 너 하날위해.
너와 함께라면 두려울게 난 없는걸

LET ME BE THE ONE, 네가 있어서 내가 존재하는걸
LET ME BE THE ONE FOR ALL YOUR ANSWERS, 그 사람이 나라고
LET ME BE THE ONE, 세상에 하나, LET ME BE THE ONE WHO CARES.
LET ME BE THE ONE, 변하지않아, 다시 태어난대도
BABY IT’S YOU

LET ME BE THE ONE, 너만의 사람. 내가 되고싶다고 (LET ME BE THE ONE)
LET ME BE THE ONE, 난 하루종일, 너만 생각한다고 (그 사람이 나라고)
LET ME BE THE ONE, 나 약속할게, 너를위해 산다고 (LET ME BE THE ONE)
LET ME BE THE ONE, 나 영원토록, (WOULD YOU LET ME BE) 너만 사랑한다고 (OH LET ME BE)

LET ME BE THE ONE

HAH~My mission now is to practice and practice till I can read this whole thing smoothly! I freaking love this song, so I guess it would make things easier..LOL.

GD Is My Obsession

Ahhh~ GD's continuing their album promotion and after performing 3 songs; High High, Oh Yeah, and Knock Out, they continue to promote 2 more songs and one of them is GD's solo track in that album - Obsession! Today's the first live performance on M. Countdown and it seriously made my day! No point posting the video here, cause You Tube's gonna block them soon.

But the performance was seriously kick ass~ His hair was back to his Heartbreaker days- not the blonde, but the mohawk spike. It's got the feeling from the 'She's Gone' MV. Wicked~ his stares, his eye contact, everything~ sexy! ♥♥♥

I've always enjoyed reading people's comments on GD. So, I kinda decided to copy a couple of nice ones. It's nice to read back next time and have a good laugh of how obsessed I was over GD once.

♥GD took my breath away! i love that song! 

♥gd = sex !  (LMAO!!!)

♥GOT GOOSEBUMPS from the very beginning of Obsession!! LOVE THAT SONG! MY FAVOURITE!! la;sdfjadjfks; GD so INTENSE and EPIC!!! wahhhh 

♥ah the hair is back to a normal state  

♥Nightmare/Obsession wooohhhh....that performance gave me goosebumps!!! MV like performance! soo hot and GD's stares are soo sexy and melting xp GD you're my obsession but you're not a nightmare, you're sweet dreams for me. 

♥I love how YG artists can wear anything on stage...they wear what they like and it always looks cool...

♥I love that they incorporated "She's Gone" through little flashes, it all pieces together nicely. GD must have been at the studios all night filming the different scenes for this, haha. Two great performances, as expected :)

♥gahh...GD..u're my obsession~

♥OMGAAAHOOOOOOOOOO... Can I die now? GD... *dies again* ...

♥WTF. Jaw dropping performance. That Sexy-psycho-killer look of GD is just so insanely sexy!

♥am i the only one here who 'BIG GASPED' in total amazement [i mean we all know the GD stage was going to be greattt] you can tell GD was performing his heart out. =]]] <333

♥A lot of fangirls already died in heaven!!keke;P

♥ I love that GD's face has so much expression and passion in it...I always love his expressions <3 

♥GDs solo was amazing.. he's got such overwhelming stage presence, even when he was standing still for most of the performance.. that was great.

♥GD'S STAGE WAS SO FUCKING GOOD, THAT I LAST COMMENTED HERE 40 MINUTES AGO, BECAUSE I WAS TOO BUSY REPLAYING IT OVER AND OVER AND OVER...

♥Such a good performance just standing on a 3x3 platform with a mic and nothing else - GD was born to perform. I really like him.

♥My god, that was intense, Kwon Jiyong. 

Oh god...so many comments. It's gonna flood up my blog if I put in more. Sometimes, reading back what people wrote...it's just fun to read. LOL. These people are all ready to die and go meet GD in heaven. XD

13.Jan.2011

Ohhh~ today's another day of exhilarating P4 class. T__T *sighs* 

Do students always end up blur in P4 classes every sem? If yes, then I'm glad I'm not the only one. Well anyway, I should appreciate all the time I have now, before I eventually have to start working for the rest of my life -which will surely suck. 

Let's see..I have Monte Carlo Simulation, MIRR, and VaR to study tonight, but since I had my dinner so late, everything's been delayed and I don't really feel like studying anyway. So why torture myself at such early period of the sem? LoL. Chill~

#__#

Today sort of sucked. Mood was ruined in the afternoon. Urrgh. Some people think that ACCA is like such an easy course, whereby you just attend the stupid lecture, sit for those stupid multiple choice exams plus one or two essay questions (tips already given by lecturer) and you're off happily~graduating. 

=___=

This isn't DIBA or whatever stupid course. Sorry, I'm not discriminating other courses. But we study our asses off for almost the whole year and all we get is 2 weeks of holidays twice. Which makes it up to a grand total of one month holidays or so. We don't have that much time like you guys, going wherever you want, doing whatever you want. Although, we somehow can, but sorry la, I'm not as good as you are in balancing between making sure my studies are on track and putting in the effort to keep in touch with old friends. Even if I'm on holiday, its only 2 weeks. I need time for myself too you know. I'm not like you who likes to run everywhere and can't stand to sit still at home. I LOVE TO STAY AT HOME and spend time with myself when I'm free. (Doesn't mean I'm anti-social XD)
=.=

Well, anyway I just wanna blog it out and come to think of it, it's really a small tiny matter-not worth getting pissed at also. It doesn't bug me anymore now, though I was really mad in the noon. I just hate the feeling of being misunderstood or accused. 

I really hate that, out of the other things. 

Yeah, so, whatever...

♥~♥~♥~♥

Ps. Oh man, I gotta learn to be more thick skinned. Cause I know I'll get screwed up one day at work for my carelessness and irresponsibility.

11.1.11

Ok, at this point, P4 doesn't seem that scary anymore. I guess we were just freaked out at first by those super complicated formulas and stuff. After trying my very best to read up and understand, I think it's not so bad now. I hope I can cope up. Black Scholes model wasn't that bad after all. It is actually ok (I think, lol). Hm...we're studying options now...share options, real options...I gotta read up some extra stuff to und more.
So, I think it's manageable so far.
I shouldn't start stressing myself this early. It's not even CNY yet. =__=||

Anyway, yeah..that's that. I'm also starting to like reading back lots of my old vampire stories. Just read Bram Stoker's Dracula during dinner last night. It was either that, or reading Darren Shan's Vampire Assistant. I also just downloaded 2 e-books from the Evernight series, and I'm currently halfway through the first one. ^_^
I hope to finish it asap! But I haven't been reading them since..erm...Friday or Saturday? XD Gotta catch up!

Life's been back to becoming pretty monotonous these days. I haven't anything interesting to write about either, except for how freaked out we were last week on P4, about classes, my sudden increasing interest in vampire stories (lol), Korean classes, G-Dragon, and all the other random things. Ah yes, GD...speaking of which. It's sooooo freaking delightful to dream about him last night~and to dream of Xander on the night before. LMAO~! I seriously enjoyed those 2 dreams so much! Though I can't remember most of the things one hour after I woke up. Sigh~ I wish I could recall them back. I remembered Xander's dreams was something about water theme parks and award ceremonies...something like that Z__Z
And then GD's one was something about some sad confession, then I went somewhere...then an empty school environment appeared, I was walking up some stone steps, then he called me and there was some conversation going on~all was good in the end...Hm, I can't remember much! Arrghh!!!
Whatever it was, it was definitely a sweet dream~ ^_^


Ok, what else to write? Oh yes, I'm like super addicted to to Bbeokigayo (Knock Out)  by GD and TOP now~ After they released that MV, I was blown 100miles away~ It was supercalifragilistic-expialidociously SUPERB! It's so freaking cool! I love that MV. Another job well done to GD for managing to produce such an excellent album. It doesn't matter if that IU gets no.1 on the charts and you guys are no.2 sometimes. Haha, although it sort of matters somehow. But I don't care~I still love GD's songs! It's so stylish, fresh, modern and catchy. So, it doesn't matter how nice IU's songs may be, I don't like her! XD I'm a girl, that's the way it goes when she stands in between GD and no.1 spot. LMAO! I'd drive a stake through her heart! (kidding =__=)
Anyway, I'll include the MV here~ he's so super sexy, man~ *melts*
Also, the bubble-wrap popping action is super adorable! Hahahaha



They've recently released another version of most of the songs on their album, all acapella version! I'm currently hunting YouTube, 4Shared.com, wherever...for these versions! I bet it's gonna be super nice!

2nd Lesson

OK, I gotta blog this out.

P4 is starting to freak the hell outta me!

I really don't know what to say but to feel overwhelmed. It's just 2 lessons so far and already, I feel super blur. Well, kinda... It's ok to feel a bit unsure, but this is not the type of blur I should be feeling on the first day of class, get me? I mean, its just the first day of class...how blur could you get? It can't be that tough right?
Well, it is in P4...
T__T
Hm, I know I shouldn't worry so much cause it's only the beginning. But then again, this is only the beginning...what about the rest of the weeks to come??? It's gonna be worse if I start to freak out now!
/CALM~~
He's just too fast sometimes. Sure, we can voice out on that. I bet I'm not the only one to feel that way. On one find day, if somebody tells him this, the whole class will be so grateful to that person! LOL. I thought initially, P4 will be tough (yeah, its hell of a tough one to chew on) but I thought I'd be able to manage somehow. But after 2 lessons with him, I feel that he's beginning to scare the heck out of me already. So many things to relate too (he's too fast again). So many things to dig out from previous F9 studies (not his fault, its ours for not remembering them). So many new theories and explanations and things to remember. Sometimes, the logic just doesn't click into your brain on the spot. I need time! I'm not as fast and as smart as people think I am ok?
=__=
I feel so overwhelmed.
Gosh~
How laaa?
I mean, I know P4's gonna be hell. But, I didn't expect hell to come this quick! At least go slow on us at the beginning. He's already planning to go into option pricing and Black Scholes model next week. Whadaheck man! First day itself was some gearing, ungearing of beta, and the whole CAPM, WACC stuff (still manageable though) PLUS some other Free Cash Flow thing which kinda complicates the whole thing a little. Then today there's Adjusted Present Value (APV), a modified version of the usual NPV calculation. Then you'll have to separate some crap component. Bla bla bla...
Omaigod.
Overwhelmed.
Definitely.
I'm gonna have to condition myself to Not start to Hate P4. Cause if I do, then that's the end of me. LoL.
Maybe I'm just not used to his teaching style.
I want Mr. Gobuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! T__T
I wish he was still here...then he'll be teaching us P4 instead. Plus there's like 17 of us in P4, which makes the whole environment so foreign. =__=
Aih, I've a lot to complain.
Well, no matter, I still have to get myself to go through that chunk of P4 again tomorrow.
See?! I'm already feeling negative about it now!
Urrrghhh~~~

First Day of Class

Today's the first day of class, and its already so scary. Hm, more like the horrors of P4 are beginning to unravel itself despite this is only the 1st class of the sem. 

He's good, but...sometimes too fast. You've to like, pay 100% to what he's saying while concentrating on what you're jotting down at the same time or else you'll tend to get lost along the way. He gave a brief intro to the syllabus and what is expected of us. Overall, it was kinda scary lor, to reveal so much on the first day. But otoh, its good to let us know that we've to start work from day 1 itself.

It's not easy passing your optionals. DEFINITELY.

Tomorrow's P5, and my first meeting with Mr. David to decide on my OBU topic. Hopefully by starting early, I'll have more time and its ok if it gets delayed later~hahaha. 

Ah yes, reminder to self: Go grab textbooks tomorrow~

I was just thinking, for the past 2.5 weeks, I've been doing nothing but onlining, listening to songs, TV, indulging myself in K-POP idols, guitar-ing, reading, learning Korean, and a bit of OBU research, occasionally doing some cleaning and cooking, here and there. Nothing on my list of things which I did required any mental stress. And today, there was like such a huge different in the things I did at night compared to last week. 

=__=

I studied for the first time today. I was forced to open my F9 textbook after feeling blur in class today. It's like my head was just ngam ngam above waters today. His tactic to scare us today sort of worked I guess. And I still think we definitely deserve more than 2 weeks of break~after all the brain cracking we've done for the past few months. 

Sigh~~

Holidays have officially ended. 

Time to descend from cloud 9 and back to living hell.

Who likes this anyway. 

With OBU and all coming....
And here come GDeeeeeeeee~

Hm..I hope this will be another good year for me, for us all~ but most importantly, for me~

HAHAHAHA XD

Let's hope this sem goes smoothly and I can knock out every single ACCA paper that comes my way~just like GD's new song, Knock Out!

뻑이가요~

아주 뻑이 가요 아주 뻑뻑뻑뻑 뻑이가요~~

Ok~its late now...GDNITE~!

Off to Xanderland to join him. LOL XD

030111

WHew~~~It's 3rd of January 2-0-1-1 !!! New year, and I've to get used to writing 2011, not 2010. LOL. Went to college today, but not to study. Played guitar a while with darling. Class officially starts tomorrow, with P4. Then its P5, then 4, then 5. With it, comes the beginning of opening books, OBU thesis, and results!
Who likes the start of school...
Well...
I guess we don't have much of a choice. It's still better than working life though XD

OK, I just paused for a super long time. I don't really know what to write...
I'm just writing for the sake of blogging my first post of the year.
And it turned out to suck. =__=||
I NEED to finish reading Stargazer by tonight~I swear, or else I won't be able to finish it!

안녕하세요 내이름은의 카르멘 이애요
만나서 반갑습니다
저는 학생입니다 ~
저는 회계 공부 해요
나 지드래곤와 빅뱅 좋아해요
♥ 사랑해요 ♥~~

This is what my korean teacher forced us to come up with yesterday. With the limited amount of words we know, we each had to come up with a few lines to intro ourselves in Korean. Ah god~ that was like LMAO~ I don't even know how to form proper sentences. I only know a few words here and there randomly.
I know it sounds very basic, but that's the best I can say if you ask me to go up to GD and say hi. HAHAHAHA~