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Well, today's the last day of the year...

ok I'm not gonna make this post an emo one... =.=

2009 has been a great year, well at least nothing bad happened.

So what's next year's resolution???

Hm...

Actually I don't really make resolutions and say I have to do this, this, this, and this... It's kinda like just doing what comes your way and as long as everything goes well at the moment, then I'm happy. Of course I want my studies to go well and gotta take care of my health... >_< very very important.

College will be starting next Monday...then its back to the books...haihzzz and the whole cycle starts again... I don't even know what to write anymore...

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Why is GD shedding tears? ? ? ?

Big Bang's G-Dragon has sparked up curiosity among many because the leader shed tears during the performance of his hit single, Heartbreaker at the 2009 SBS Gayo Daejun for reasons still unknown.

Big Bang's agency, YG Entertainment, spoke up about the incident during a phone call with Me2day Star News today on December 30. The representative said,
"There is much speculation about this issue, but only G-Dragon knows what happened during the stage performance. Today, G-Dragon and the other Big Bang members left for Japan to receive a newcomer award. The only way we can find out about why he teared during his stage performance is to confirm with G-Dragon himself as soon as he comes back from Japan."

*Hope he feels better now ^^*

Anyway, Happy New Year 2010 & Adios 2009~

Happy New Year GD, XD

~_~

I've always wondered about this book where you can see your past, present and future life -3 lives. It is suppose to tell you what were you and what have you done in your past life and how it affects your present self. It tells you your current life and what will happen to you in perhaps 10, 20 or 30 years down the road. Will you succeed in life? At what age will you marry, or maybe you might not marry at all~ etc. The book says it all. I'm not sure about how it will tell you your future life, because I believe what you do now in this life affects your next life, people call it Karma -The Law of Cause and Effect. So I don't know how it can really 'confirm' how your future life will turn out to be, but one thing's for sure, this book is pretty accurate.

According to my mom you can go to the temple and see it once you turn 21(chinese age), so I can actually see mine by the end of next year. =/

My mom definitely wants to go see it, lol but I'm not really sure about it. >_< What if it says that something bad might or worse...WILL happen to me in future? I don't wanna live my life for the next ten years or so knowing that this particular 'thing' will happen to me one day. What if it says I'll die at --- age? or What if it says I'll suffer from some really terrible sickness one day and just...~ CHOI, TOUCH WOOD! Of course, nobody wants all these things to happen, we're all just human and not exempted from life, death and sickness. I am afraid of all those...but what's the point knowing that all those things will happen to me one day? Can't I just live my life happily without knowing all those things? XD Let's just say that ignorance is bliss~

If the book says good things then of course it's alright, but what if...it doesn't? What if it says that my future won't be like a bed of roses? I know life is definitely NOT a bed of roses and I know so far, throughout these 19yrs of my life, I've been living a perfectly happy life...it's like the path has been planned and laid out perfectly for me. All I have to do is to just walk along the path. I am very very lucky indeed to have been blessed with such a good life and I am very grateful to my parents and family for all of it. I realised I have been very lucky compared to many of my friends. I have what I want (well not everything, but I'm satisfied with what I am and what I have now) and life definitely have ups and downs. Well, since I consider this as my 'up', then when is my 'down'? There has to be a time for it. >_<

Life can't be all smooth sailing. I know there will be a time for it when I've to learn to do things on my own and without the support of my parents. But am I ready for all of those? I really really doubt that. Sometimes I really do think I'm that vulnerable. Sighs... I know myself and I'm pretty sure there's gotta be something for me to endure in future. I'm not being a pessimist, but life can't be all perfect for me right?

2009~

2009 is coming to an end, what have I been going through this whole year? Well there are ups and downs. Good months and bad months, happy moments and angry moments.

JANUARY, FEBRUARY, MARCH, APRIL, MAY- was all smooth sailing, had classes and breaks as usual...nothing big has happened. I can conclude that the first half of the year was good and nothing really gone wrong, though there were some occasional bad weathers.

JUNE- ACCA exams...stress level has reached its maximum for all of us.

JULY, AUGUST, SEPTEMBER- Things happened here and there, but still it was all ok (I guess...) Loads of birthday celebrations around the corner, ie time to be broke, LOL. But still it was all fun and the year end is drawing closer...which means exams are much nearer and the term is gonna end soon, and you'll see people leaving once again =(

The month of OCTOBER- the month where there were so many things going on. First of all, its my birthday...so yeah, I should be happy of course...and also its the month where my anger has peaked.

I'm also thankful to my friends for making my day a blast...I really appreciate all of that.

On the other hand, not so thankful to a certain someone, who practically RUINED my birthday! It's my birthday and you spoiled it all!!! I really really wanna not see you, but ended up I had to face you for the whole day (as if the daytime celebration wasn't enough =.=) Errghh...my temperature was seriously boiling like mad and I've been tolerating you for such a freaking long time. I had to suppress everything down and tell myself nevermind, nevermind, gonna reach home soon...gonna reach home soon...

I was so freaking mad will I had to wash my hands with Dettol the minute I reach home. It made no sense as it could not remove whatever that has happened but I still did it anyway. Who are you anyway? Who are YOU???? You're like my nobody ok, and you DO NOT question me as to why I'm back home late from my aunty's house. Hello! Let me repeat my question: WHO ARE YOU???!!!

And YOU THINK 4 MONTHS IS SO SUPER DUPER GREAT?

*CALM*

Ok, you do not have the right to do that and that too, and you never ever will, got that?

I don't like show-offs who think that they're so super duper great and they can get what they want and will do whatever possible to get it. You think you're so good? Once again, I'm not some prize to be won, so stay out of my life!

 *CALM*

But anyway I'm glad this nightmare is over...and you had no idea how immensely relieved and de-stressed I was at the end of the month. No more worrying that you're gonna disturb me while I was studying, cause I have to freaking hard control the urge to cancel your call or ignore it.

Ok, Ok calm....I'm sorry if I sounded insulting but that was just a tiny bit of how I felt about this matter, and now its all over...=) To the person whom I don't have any feelings for from the very beginning, please don't do this to me. Thank you very much. =.=
Anyway, all this is just another experience and lesson to be learned. As they say, before you can see the rainbow, you must first survive the storm.

And anyway October month is Halloween =) One of my favourite holidays as a kid, LOL. I love Halloween XD

 NOVEMBER- Em, yeah exams are this much closer and I'm definitely getting back to my normal me. LOL. Stressed up, day and night studying...trying very hard not to get sick during exams >_< Also this is when I got so crazy into Big Bang and G-DRAGON~ Started liking everything Korean...and I was really really really crazy. All my blog posts were on GD =.= Well, at least it's something to keep me entertained while I'm studying. Haha~ November should be GD Mania Month. XD You're ma heart, heart, heart, heart, heart~breaker...^_^

DECEMBER- Exam month once again. I'm always so jealous because school children are busy holiday-ing while we're busy fighting a war here. =.= But then again, we've all been through that stage, so...yeah. Many things have happened and as I've reached the end of yet another year, I realised that I've learned a lot of new things throughout these 12months. Hm I think I've definitely matured a little? LoL. I knew a lot of things now which I didn't realise back then. I'm glad these 12months turned out to be one hell of a great experience for me and I'm thankful to have been given the chance to live, in order to see all of this.

HAPPY 2010~ ~ ~!

SDD

Wow, I didn't know the holidays could be super duper depressing...
I'm practically rotting away at home with nothing to do, and nothing to think of.
@_@
Probably cause we've been studying so much before this and now when we're left with absolutely nothing to do, this is what becomes of me. =.=
I'm very extremely, super super super duper, BOREDDDD...
I know, this is so typical...
and I'm not the only one complaining...lol
I have like only one more week of holidays left, and so far, I've done nothing.
I really feel like this term break is going to waste...
True, I haven't been using my brain a lot lately lol, but having not to use my brain makes me feel as if everything is moving so slow around me...
Time passes so slow, cause I've nothing to do...so I've actually been able to keep a detail track of time.
I was so bored till I've actually decided to dig out some of my old cross stitch stuff and start on one. =.=
But I stopped halfway cause the colour combination I used wasn't able to attract me to continue stitching...
Haha~
And I actually have time to blog everyday...this shows how much free time I have. XD
I have all the episodes of  宮心計, but I'm just too lazy to start watching...haha~
Ridiculous right?
Gosh I need to get a life man...=.=||

After 2yrs XD

Haha~ finally after nearly 2years, my mom allowed me to touch her car.

=.=

LoL went for laksa during lunch somewhere near Bougainvillea club and after that I was like 'Eh, let me drive la, let me drive la...'

Since that area hasn't got many cars, she allowed.

=.=

LOL the last time I was allowed to touch the car was the first time I drove it, and that was last January...on the day I earned my P licence. XD

I drove the car back home from college and my mom was like freaking out beside me all the way home, imagine that. I didn't know how to adjust the speed cause the car was so much heavier, break pun tak tau, didn't know how to estimate the distance, etc. From that day onwards, my parents forbid me to touch the car. +__+

Haih~ it was that terrible back then...lol.

 Finally I managed to convince her to let me drive the car back home today, haha~

First and biggest mistake I made -forgot to release hand break.......

god...

(=_=)V

 When we got home, I asked 'Not as freaky as last time right?'

She was like 'Yeah...=.='

LOL this time it was way better I felt. Next time Imma get her to let me drive more, muahahaha~

25th Dec

Thoughts&Opinions

I've just deleted my last post which I wrote last night xD
Now when I'm reading it back, I felt that it was super emo...lol
And I don't think that way anymore, so I felt that the post wasn't relevant anymore, haha.
*delete*
I realised I've been thinking so much since I've started reading MAFM, WAFV. Girls by nature think a lot, and they think and think and think. @_@ One thing leads to another and to another. So its like a never ending thread I would say? LoL. The more I read, the more I think and the thread begins. So I'm kinda in a well now, haha. It's neither one's fault, it's just natural. So I'm just expressing how I feel here, without the intention to blame anyone XD.
Ok, ignore me, I'm crapping =.=
Reading this book makes me think of stuff which I've never even bother to give it a thought before and I'm definitely learning a lot from it. It's been my companion for the past couple of days and keeps me occupied. Enjoyed reading it at the same time makes me realise stuff which I've been ignorant of before this.
I would really recommend it to everyone cause if every guy and girl in this world knows about all these things, there would be less one break-up/divorce happening. Arguments and misunderstandings are bound to happen -it's inevitable but with this book, it helps to reduce the possibility of arguing over differences between men and women.
Holidays are coming to an end soon >.<
And I felt as if I haven't been able to enjoy it fully. Yes I do hang out with my friends once in a while, but somehow something is lacking...need to experience something more...er...'chi gik' XD haha and when I mean 'chi gik' obviously not stuff like mountain climbing and bungee jumping =.=
I'm afraid of heights....
>.<